I am not a huge fan of Valentine's day. I'm sure I would probably feel different if I had a significant other to spend it with. I remember the first Valentine's day together with Ted. I was excited that I actually had a boyfriend to spend it with. I went out and bought him a gift and planned a special dinner. I waited around for him to show up. He called and said he was too tired to drive the 10 minutes to my apartment. I should have know right then that he was not the right guy for me. Looking back now I see 1 million red flags that should have told me "STOP! THIS GUY IS NOT RIGHT FOR YOU!!" In all the years we were together he never once got me a Valentine present or even a freaking card. That seems like such a little thing but it's the little things that really add up. I'm not sure that he ever really even cared about me. I wish I would have realized that a long time ago. I wish I would have realized that I did deserve better and my boys definetly deserve better. There is no going back now but I will move forward with the hope that one day there will be a guy that will treat me and my sons the way we deserve.
Tomorrow I will spend the day with my two favority guys. Who needs a guy when I have two adorable valentines right here!
